Wishing I Was A Stay At Home Mom

Ok recently I have been thinking a lot about the possibility of not working. Although at this moment it seems very slim. I am currently working full time and trying to juggle the responsibilites of being a mother and housewife. I can say that it has been very difficult. My goal is to work at least another year and try to work part time so that I can transition to full time school. This however brings me to another dilema. How am I going to pay for my school? The employer that I work for now has a tuition reimbursent program where they will pay a certain amount for me to get a degree or will pay the full tuition if I get a degree that is healthcare related. This is great but what I don't understand is how can you possibly do both? It makes no sense to me. I really wish I can just quit but then it creates a problem for us financially. Is there really just a simple way for you to do something? It seems like there is always an obstacle. I need to stay positive and just hope that things will work out. :)

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Nearing the End

Well I can almost say that I have made it through a semester. Yay!! I can say that my first semester at Triton College was good. I stuck through it and overall it was not that bad. I can say that there was a period when I felt overwhelmed a bit, but with the support of my husband I was able to get ahead. I hope to keep the same determination that I have had so that I can achieve my goal and obtain my degree. The only thing I can say about my experience with online classes is that you really don't get to interact as much with the students that are taking the same class. I envisioned it as being more involved with students and teacher. That is my only complaint but overall it was ok.

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Autumn is Here!

I have noticed recently that the energy of people around me is "blah". I go to work and everyone is commenting about how tired they are. I feel like we must have some intuition that winter is coming and need to hibernate or something. If it were up to a lot of people they would just sleep. I am not looking forward to those days when you have to wake up in the morning when you are nice and warm under the covers. Those days are the hardest. You just want to call off work and stay in bed all day. I personally look forward to fall. It is my favorite season (along with spring). It's not to hot or too cold. Hopefully winter is not too bad this year. Altough two warm winters in a row seems unlikely.

He called me "Sofia Loren"

Today was a rough day! When I woke up I had that feeling too. I started my day as usual going through the usual morning routine until I got to work. I was about 2 hours into working when I got the news. I was told that one of my coworkers had passed away. He had been sick for the past month or so. I had worked with him for about 6 or 7 months before he transferred to a different department but same area. He was the life of the office and touched may people with his personality. You looked forward to talking with him every day at work. Even after he left our department he still kept in contact with us. He was the type of person that you just got along with and he made you feel comfortable. I could not believe that he had passed away and am still kind of in shock. The only thing I could think of was he was so young, only 37 years old and I was just talking to him last month. I guess that just goes to show how you never know when your time is up. You really need to stop and enjoy what you have around you. You get lost in the hustle and bustle of everyday life and can go through the day ignoring what you have around you. I feel sad that I lost a friend but I'm sure that he's in a better place now and is at peace. You will be missed Dennis Ramos. RIP.

STRESS

I don't know about anyone else, but it seems like lately I am encountering this (Stress) a lot more than usual. If you would ask me 10 years ago if I had stress I would say the only stress I had was worrying about what I was going to do on my days off. Now as I work full time, take a couple classes and have a family to take care of I feel this heavy burden on me all the time. I must look stressed out too! During the past week I have had a couple of coworkers tell me, "You look tired!"and "You look rough!" It seems like I don't have time to do anything for myself. I need to seriously slow down and take a break. Maybe 20 minutes of doing something for myself. I wonder how everyone else is dealing with stress?

THE BEGINNING

This month of August has been like traveling back in time when I was in elementary school being anxious and nervous on my first day of school. No I'm not talking about myself, although I was a little nervous about starting classes again. The anxiousness comes from a mother letting go of her son on his first day of preschool. It all started with receiving the information from his school with the dates of when classes began earlier this month. Then was the school supplies list that was attached that are needed for the year--yes an actual long list of supplies for preschool!

My son has been excited ever since we toured the school and he experienced for a while what preschool was. Ever since then he has been asking me, "Mommy am I going to school today?", on periodic basis. I can just hope that he will keep his enthusiasm for school in the coming years. I am excited and sad that he is growing up so fast. It's like the older you get the faster time flies by. I remember being 15 wishing I was 21 already (the waiting seemed like eternity). Now I wish I could go back to being 15, just to enjoy it a little more.

I had a few weeks of starting the process of getting the supplies, getting his school physical and all other things that I will look forward to as a parent of three kids, for the next 17 years. As I rush to get all these things, the day he starts school just keeps getting closer and closer. As selfish as I may seem I just don't want to let him go. I understand now what my mother told me all those years, "you will see when you have kids". Growing up, every time I heard that from my mother I was like," yea OK", "whatever" ( in my head of course). But now as the day approaches when I will leave my son by himself with strangers for most of the day, I understand the sifnificance.